Sadness

[Ami Dara]

Hello everyone. I had my first awakening with 7 years but in this time I could not handle it.
Later with 16 I found the first peace of my Soulname.
Now I´m 24 years old and can remember me at some lives.
One from them makes my heart hurt.


There are pictures, feelings, memories and even words from my last life.
Sometimes dreams. It makes my heart hurt that there is no way back.
This life was in an other time and world, the Inuyasha world.
I was in this world an Otherkin too. Born as a Tenshi (angel) in an human body.
It was an hard but later an happy life.

The villagers thought I was a Youkai (Demon) because I had white Hair and blue eyes.
And I had a little sister, but I can not remember her name.
Later I was the Miko and guardrian of the village, but  my home was a little house in the forest.
So I found friends with some youkai and spirits in this forest.

But then I met the younger Sesshoumaru…

He was wandering around, but ( I don´t know why) he stayed in the forest.
In this time he was a little different, not really open but … different.
By the first meeting, we can´t like each other. And we had some fights...
One time we had a battle (I lost… but I give my best),
and after that a long time he don´t talk to me.

I can´t god remember but I think something happened and I was hurt.
He safed my life (only the gods know why), and after a long time I was cured.
In this time I had strong feelings for him, but I was to pride to say something.
So there was often akward silence between us.
Then we had a fight and he went.

On a very nice night , one of my friends brought me a letter from him.
If I wish to life with him I have to come to a special place.
There was a old shrine, one of my favorite places. Also he wrote that he would waiting until dawn.
I want to go, but then the Village would attacked ( from my sister she was now a Youkai!) and I had to go to fight.

After the fight I was poisoned and had fever. But I went to him.
The sun was rising I don´t know he was there or not, but I was there and …
I died.

[Ami Dara]

Sorry, I had first introduce my self, but it was hard that I couldn´t tell somebody this story. I tried it sometimes with some people, but the best thing what happend was that they were neutral.

So now to my person:

You can call me, Ami-chan if you want, but please not only Ami. I don´t know why but I don´t like it. So I´m from Germany, my englsih is not the best, but I try to give my best. I´m 24 Years old and have a little black cat, interested in magic, myth, religions and in normal things like movies, drawing, music (play tin whistle)and Baseball too.
If somebody would like to have a postfriendship (with letters or Postcards) it would make me really happy.

If there are questions, don´t be shy to ask.

Blessings
AmiDara

[Horse Fucker]

Better go kill yourself again handome man thing.